Far out frustration

Admittedly I am better now than earlier in the day. I should have really recognized it for what it was though.

FRUSTRATION!!!!

As those closest to me undoubtedly know, I have a touch of OCD that rears its ugly head every so often. Combine that with the nesting instinct of many pregnant ladies and you can get a lot accomplished normally. However, because of my Vasa Previa I am not allowed to do any exercise or heavy lifting which puts a damper on the OCD/nesting issue from above. It's almost as bad as teasing a hungry animal. 

Like I said in the beginning though, I am better now.  I took time out to watch a DVD with my family, crochet a little, have a bit of dinner and am now enjoying some quiet time with my husband after putting my little guy to sleep for the night.  I did manage to get some laundry done and we made a store run today to restock the house a bit. I just seem to be having a hard time of not thinking about what lies ahead this summer, doing what I can and enjoying where I am at right now.

I started remembering last summer saying how I wasn't wanting to do much of anything because I was really tired after 2 summers of classes followed right after with travel leaving me with really only a couple of "quiet weeks" before starting the next school year. This year I'm getting down time whether I like it or not. Unfortunately this is because of my condition and it means I will be spending the bulk of my summer in the hospital. Of course this is why I started this blog in the first place.  I warned you in the first post that I would probably be complaining a fair amount.  Sorry about that. However I have discovered that it is healthier to vent than to bottle things up.

So I am trying to enjoy things at home for the time being. My mom and older brother are supposed to come visit tomorrow to help sort through somethings to make room before baby gets here this summer. I think we're going to try to cook up hamburgers too while they're here. I do have my glucose test later this week and I meet with our specialist again a week from Tuesday to decide when they want me to check in to the hospital. In the meantime, here's to trying to be in the moment and enjoying it. Thanks for "listening" to my gripes and any support through this branch of my Life's Path!